I’m having a hard time letting go. I want to WILL everybody better. Chicken soup. Check. Medicines. Check. Healthy oils & tea. Check. Prayer? Check. Wait. When did my prayer end up in a checklist….?
Just last week I was leaning, resting thanking God in prayer & this week it became a striving thing again.
6 out of 7 of us are sick right now – the healthiest one being my hubby (who was in the hospital LAST week- with a virus). So now? I’m
And it’s feverish, hacking coughs & nausea & bronchitis & all sorts of fun. 😦
The sweet thing? Precious people who have brought soup or meals to get us through. Why does it make me so uncomfortable? I’m used to DOING that not receiving that.
It makes me feel so vulnerable.
So dependent. Yet, if it weren’t for today’s gift of chicken soup- delivered at noon by a sweet leader from church- it would have been cereal & pop tarts for lunch- and that probably wouldn’t have sped up the healing process :).
I think God makes us dependent on one another to remind ourselves of our dependence on Him.
I was reading last night a verse in Isaiah. It stuck out at me – like something I needed to pay attention to:
“Only in returning to Me
and resting in Me will you be saved.
In quietness and confidence is your strength.
… (Isaiah 30:15 NLT)
I looked it up in the Message paraphrase and it REALLY spoke to me:
“Your strength will come from settling down in complete dependence on Me”
Well, frankly, that’s all I have right now: dependence. And I’m thankful He’s patiently chiseling away at my stubborn independence.
And I’m reminded there’s a special blessing for me when I realize that I can’t do it alone:
“God blesses those who are poor and REALIZE THEIR NEED FOR HIM,
for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs. (Matthew 5:3 NLT)
So thank you, to those of you, who have helped, lovingly urge, my interdependence on the Body of Christ during these sick days. You are blessing me & helping us get better not just physically but spiritually. Receiving more GRACE during trials & more LESSONS for our faith to hold onto. Thank you for letting us depend on Christ in you.
I’m resting in that dependence.